Ahmed

Ahmed

Letting go of inner fear is the biggest change I’ve made in my life. Specifically letting go of the concept of ‘tomorrow tomorrow’. I’ve been really blessed in my life to have escaped a war torn country and that my parents have given me a new life. For me learning about things and society have made me believe that I should get a degree and should get married. There were a lot of shoulds in my life. I was living in the future.

I did all those things, and I got to a point where I wasn’t present. There was a lot of fear and projection. Then I asked myself a lot of those questions and decided that I was going to live presently, every day. Especially being in the Kathmandu earthquake made me realize that you can't even take the ground under you for granted.

I was in a self doubt cycle, depressing inner feelings to maintain a status quo. It wasn’t until I stopped fearing change and started loving myself that I went ahead and did all the projects I wanted. I mutually parted ways with my ex, I got into natural building and all the other things that interest me. Start with self love, only then you can let everybody else in.

My seed for change? Don’t be too hard on yourself. It’s only when you love everything you’re doing and every emotion you’re going through that you become present.

Ahmed