Johan and Annemarie

Johannemarie

Going to these trance parties is definitely the biggest change that we’ve made in our lives. We used to be really conservative you know…
One day we told our son that he shouldn’t be going to these parties because they were of the devil. He replied that we should see it for ourselves before we could really judge. 
So we did, without telling him we bought tickets to have a look what was going on.
We were amazed by the love and creative energy that was flowing all around us.

That was 13 months ago and we’ve been to 17 of these festivals since then. 
To think that a man has to become 71 to do the first dance in his life, can you believe that?
Someone told us to dance in the middle of the dancefloor, not at the edge, that way you become a part of the energy.
Last year at Origin Festival the organizer came up to us on the dancefloor to give us lifelong free entrance. When the other festivals heard of this they said they could not stay behind.

Our whole life we did a lot of giving but we never knew how to receive, this is something the party scene has taught us.
We just sold our house to move into a motorhome with which we can stay even closer to the festival scene. It just fits better with our new lifestyle.

Our seed for change is: You’re never to old to try something new.

Johan and Annemarie

Maria and Allan

MariaAllan

We have been travelling without money for over twenty years. In 93 we gave everything away and began our journey.That year I gave my home to the person who wanted it. Allan gave all his possessions to the Steiner school he worked at. Giving gives such joy. You must be prepared to let go, attachement you don’t need.

We travelled without any money for about two and a half years until the government caught up with us. They got stressed because we hadn’t applied for our pensions. We lived with no money, we walked until we were offered shelter, we fasted until we were fed. Travelling with just one bag with two pair of knickers and two T-shirts was a challenge, but it never ever stopped me from trusting. This is okay, this is what i’m meant to be doing.

In the end we gave in and took our pensions. We never use that pension, we give it all away, I don’t have a need for it. They say we must, so we do what they like and they’re happy. Everything I have is given to me, because I give. But I don’t give expecting, I just give.

We would be asked to give workshops and personal sessions around the world. We never told them we'd work for no money beforehand. We allowed them to give. In the end we would say: It’s all yours. If you can, look for a project that deserves it. Maybe it’s a family in need, whatever you find from your heart, help them. This was Polish money, it was Indian money, it didn’t matter where we were, it belonged to those people, not to us. We didn’t need it.

It makes my heart sing when somebody says: I am awake, I have woken up. Everybody would like you to stay asleep, to not realise who you are. You’ve given yourselves the opportunity to find out who you are, without being in the mundane nine to five, pay your bills system. You are free now, and your decisions come from your heart, not from your head. That’s what makes it beautiful.

Our seed for change? Find still time, by that I mean be in your own company and listen. Don’t expect messages to come in a particular way. Believe in You, for nobody knows You better than You. Do a little mantra every day: I believe in me, I love and trust myself. Every day, a thousand times if you like. The more you say it, the more it becomes a way of being. It’s simple, it’s so damn simple. We can only do it with love, with violence it’s been tried and it doesn’t work.

Maria and Allan

Sky

Sky

I freed myself from the system completely. My parents are the system, my father is a navy seal so I’ve grown up around military and guns and I hated it. I got out and started playing music. I had to wait until I was sixteen, the legal age to leave home, otherwise the cops just take you back, there’s nothing you can do about that.

Freeing yourself means walking away from what everybody else does, at any cost. I write music as a movement thing. I take sound pretty seriously, it’s very healing to people so you should be careful what you use it for. I write songs to get people to listen and to feel again in society. 

They’ve already got it here, people know what they’re doing when they're part of this tribe, to them it’s more something to dance to, they already understand what I’m trying to say. When you sing to people in a city, they’re so lost in their little box, that when you sing to them you open up a door. They can see through it what life can be like, or what it’s supposed to be like, and that isn’t from nine to five without communication. 

My seed for change? Just do what you’re meant to do, don't let anybody tell you what you’re supposed to do. Everybody can make beautiful things, create what’s inside you and bring it to life. 

Sky

 

Johnny

Johnny

Sitting here with this beautiful goddess daughter on my lap, that’s probably been the biggest change for me ever. For most of my life I’ve been a single man, trying to find resonance with community and people. Finding that and finding my own, finding myself and what makes me right has driven me towards a partner that has a very strong connection to me for a real long, maybe even ancestral or energetic line. 

To have this new being come into this realm that we’re present in right now has been an amazing change for me because it’s kind of difficult in our culture. I’m eight generation Australian from back in the early days of the fleets coming in. Our culture is real different to the other cultures out there that actually are built upon community. 

I had some solstice time when Yameya was coming in to regroup and to find what I wanted. Now I’ve been living in a community for two months, it’s absolutely amazing to live in a community with my little darling starseed and just be the guardian of her, to just allow her to be around many people. She’s got about eight aunties and uncles at this festival looking after her. 

My seed for change? I don’t know, I guess find what you really want, what you really like and what makes you feel really happy and you’ll find other people that love the same thing. 

Johnny One-tree

Ahmed

Ahmed

Letting go of inner fear is the biggest change I’ve made in my life. Specifically letting go of the concept of ‘tomorrow tomorrow’. I’ve been really blessed in my life to have escaped a war torn country and that my parents have given me a new life. For me learning about things and society have made me believe that I should get a degree and should get married. There were a lot of shoulds in my life. I was living in the future.

I did all those things, and I got to a point where I wasn’t present. There was a lot of fear and projection. Then I asked myself a lot of those questions and decided that I was going to live presently, every day. Especially being in the Kathmandu earthquake made me realize that you can't even take the ground under you for granted.

I was in a self doubt cycle, depressing inner feelings to maintain a status quo. It wasn’t until I stopped fearing change and started loving myself that I went ahead and did all the projects I wanted. I mutually parted ways with my ex, I got into natural building and all the other things that interest me. Start with self love, only then you can let everybody else in.

My seed for change? Don’t be too hard on yourself. It’s only when you love everything you’re doing and every emotion you’re going through that you become present.

Ahmed

Alexandra

alexandra

Deciding to be who I am is the biggest change I’ve made in my life. I feel that when you grow up, there’s always something that you think you should be, something that you’re working towards. If I’m looking at my life and the people that I’ve been, it’s always been like a wave. That I started like myself, then moved away and then came back to myself. It’s like when you are at the peak of that wave, that’s when you make the decision to come back to who you truly are, or you don’t.

As I went through adolescence, I felt like I was moving away from who I was, until I decided to just be who I was, to come back to who I truly am. There are some challenges because now you have to be yourself and there’s nothing to hide behind. It’s actually harder but it gave me peace, inner peace. It’s like an ongoing journey because if you deciding to be yourself, it never ends. 

My seed for change? Just do it, if you see it and it’s where you want to be, then just do it, whatever it is. It can be. 

Alexandra

Marijn

marijn

My change started when I stopped drinking. Alcohol acted like a blindfold that hid all reasons for changing my behaviour. Once I gave up drinking, I saw myself shine with attention, love and positivity. I also noticed the people around me appreciating my presence more and more.

From this flowed the inner change that feels even more important; to accept myself fully in the present, together with all previous experiences that shaped my current self. This acceptance flipped my life around, I feel like a phoenix risen from the ashes.

At a tantra weekend I met my first girlfriend. I was thirty years old and never had sex, nor even kissed a girl. Where I started this relation inexperienced, she awoke the lion in me. This lion is now awake and won’t sleep again.

This lion has it’s calling; I want to inspire others and guide them on their path to greater self love. It is of importance to love yourself 100%, improvement starts from your current form. Embrace all of your shortcomings, your imperfections make you perfect. 

My seed for change would be: Love yourself 100% as you are now, including your past. No matter how often you’ve been hurt, how much has gone wrong in your love life or your careers. Whatever happened, accept it and be grateful that it has brought you to where currently are.

Marijn

Narayan

Narayan

For me a lot if it was driven by the fact that I’ve moved around a lot. I used to live in California where I had a partner and a very fulfilling social life. Then I moved to Australia three years ago and that was really challenging. I guess one thing that really helped with that move was that I had music. I played music and that’s how I kind of built up my life again. 

The change was going from the absolute security of having all the comfort, the people who I loved and cared about. To moving to a big city and not knowing anyone. I’d play music on the street and when other people were busking I would join them and from that I’ve managed to make a really good group of friends again here. 

All of this gave me a renewed confidence in my ability to be social and meet people. But it also made me realize that you can’t take anything for granted, like having a solid support network, beautiful friends and people that know your story. All of this taught me that I want to settle in one place for a while and establish some roots, maybe that’s my main shift in thinking. 

Before I always thought that I wanted to keep moving forever, to keep travelling. I still kind of want to do that but I also want to have a home to come back to.

My seed for change? I feel like I’m still learning, so my advice wouldn’t be coming from a place of having been successful all the time, but my genuine advice is: Don’t compromise who you are, have an open mind when you move to a new places but also maintain a real sense of identity because your innate sense of who you are, of what you do and don’t like, that will be your guide. 

Narayan

 

Miranda

Miranda

So after I’d finished school I ended up doing a gap year in the army which was really fucked up for all sorts of reasons. But at the end of that year I decided that I’m never going to do anything that I morally disagree with again. That’s my change.

Since then, everything I’ve done has been in line with what I believe in. Like social injustice and environmental stuff. All of the things that I do, no matter what it is, is centered and grounded by that. 

I guess part of the change involved seeing things from the structural perspective. Being in the army made me realize that everything is made up as constructed realities. This whole environment has been set up to make us think a certain way. To fit you into this paradigm, this box and this set of frameworks. If you don’t question you get stuck within and you get tunnel vision which is not ideal. 

So the main thing that I’ve gained from this, is that the flip between the civilian world and the military showed me the dynamics of the different structures within society. Everything is just a structure, and it’s all just made up. That was a really important thing to realize at the age of nineteen.

My seed for change? Definitely don’t go to the army! Apart from that I would suggest looking after yourself, giving back to the people around you, looking after the earth and once you’ve done all those things and you’re really happy; take psychedelics, think about your life and analyze it!

Miranda

Quinli

quinli

Meditation was a big change for me, I feel like it brought me and my partner together. He is actually one of the really big changes in my life. I was having a difficult time after Uni, as I was preparing to go overseas for the first time and was pretty nervous. He recommended me to start practicing meditation, which I did. He was just a friend at the time.

I went to the retreat that he’d recommended and found myself thinking about him a lot, I really connected meditation to him. I ended up going to Europe where we met up and travelled together. We’ve done a Vipassana retreat together twice since then.

I’ve gained a lot of strength and it calmed me. My thoughts are often crazy and meditation really helped centre me. Having this connection with my partner also reminds me of what’s important, like love.

My seed for change? I think you need to find what's good for you. I don’t want to say go and do such a retreat because it’s not the answer for everybody. If you don’t know what would work for you, maybe connecting to the people around you can help you find it.

Quilni

Nonsky

Nonsky

Understanding my own mortality is the biggest change I’ve made in my life. I got set on fire at the Burning Man event in America when I was doing some fire spinning and a friend accidentally set his beard on fire. When I jumped in to pat out his beard, he spilled the cup of fuel over me. I was severely burned across twenty two percent of my body, I still have a lot of scarring from it. 

This really connected me to my own mortality, with the fact that even though I’m strong, capable and young, that I am just as capable of dying as everybody else. It’s something obvious when you think about it but to know it emotionally is a very different thing. 

It made my family appreciate me, which was very unexpected. They always looked at me in a loving way, while disapproving of my life in a lot of ways.Specifically in trying to be a professional artist, that’s something that my parents have always put a lot of doubt about in me, about if it would be financially successful. But then I decided after the accident that life is too short to do stuff that you don’t want to do. 

My brother in law put it pretty nicely recently, he said that it made everyone realize how much they love me. And the same counts for myself, it made me realize how much I love being capable and alive, how much I love my family and all my wonderful friends. If anything it just solidified the life paths that I was already on, but it made me much more confident in them. 

My seed for change? You need to go on an adventure if you want change, there’s no adventure without an element of risk of danger. At the same time you should always mitigate the danger with common sense, but that’s a lesson a lot of people won’t learn until they touch their mortality. 

Nonsky

LaLa

lala

Most recently I ran around a huge fire, totally naked. 

That was the most significant thing that I’ve done in a while, It was very humbling. I love participating in things and there was no way I wasn’t going to do it. Even while I was saying to myself that I wasn’t going to do it, I was already taking my clothes off. I was already doing it!

My seed for change would be: Big changes happen for lots of different reasons, but mainly for happiness. So if you're not happy, change it. 

Lala
 

Absynthe

absynthe

Recently i’ve stopped working because i’m going to cycle up and down the Australian east coast to do Wwoofing. I have worked in the health system for twenty years. After travelling two years ago I was kind of in two minds about staying in the job I was in. It takes me a long time to get organised but on the friday before this festival I finally quit my job and this is the sixth day of my early retirement.

I have a habit of having expectations so I’m trying to gain the power of not having such strong expectations to see where that takes me. Wwoofing is voluntarily working on organic farms. I’ve had a garden for twenty years, I love working with plants and can’t wait to learn to farm on a larger scale. Australia is so broad, there are so many different environments around. I’m looking forward to seeing parts of Australia I’ve never seen before.

I will head south for summer and then in the dry season go north.For the first year I’ll stick to the Wwoofing and when I’ve satiated that need I’ll start working voluntarily at these sort of festivals more often while traveling around by bicycle. I suppose I’ll have to pick up some work from time to time, but I’m not going to get a full time job and settle down for quite a while. So probably semi retirement would be a more accurate description.

My seed for change? You’ve got to have a strong enough desire, I try to make this change two years ago and obviously it wasn’t the time. But now it is. If it is your time...do it!

Absynthe

 

Bongii

bongii

I’ve made a personal compromise, or pact, with nature, this is one of the biggest changes I’ve made in my life. I would live my life to serve nature, if nature showed me how to do it. This has taught me different ways to live. I personally take responsibility of my garbage, I eat local food and most of the time I traveled by foot or horseback instead of owning a car. I take care of nature by planting trees and by avoiding people who hurt nature. 

When I was younger I thought of nature as something that you have outside of society. After I started with my pact I understood that I have to be a part of nature, not something outside of it. When you become part of nature, you are no longer acting as a disease for it anymore, you are part of its feedback system. You are helping and receiving.

To really make this work it should be a collective compromise. To get everyone to help, we have to inspire other people. Not by telling them what to do, but by doing good yourself. Other people see this and will catch on if they’re ready for it. So if I act too much in the extremes, people will not get inspired, they get scared away. It’s all about experimenting with the limits.

My seed for change would be: Listen to your heart, let it tell you what you want to do. In life it can be difficult to make your own decisions. Society, family and religion can all distract us from what we really want. We have to be brave to take the decisions that we really want, and those are always from the heart.

Bonggi

Noelle

noelle

Losing my religion must’ve been the biggest change I’ve made in my life. I was experimenting with parties and at the same time I was going to church and trying to become baptised as a Jehovah's witness. I wanted to hang out more with them in order to join their organisation, but they wouldn’t hang out with me if I was still partying.

They gave me a lot of time to make my own personal decision, and for a while I had been doing really well in not going to parties and enjoying dancing sober. Then one night I had an experience that changed my whole view of the world. Like every week I went to church the next day but I just could not believe anything they said anymore. I had experienced the existence of a different reality the night before.

I truly believed in the bible, which demands a completely different programming of the mind. Going to church and being in this organisation was my regimented personal routine. So to suddenly lose that, and therefore lose my personal schedule was a huge change.

Subsequently I was blasted into this world of psychedelic explorers, artists and circus people and they showed me that there are so many more paths to pick from. It has brought me an entirely different view of the world and the way it works. I guess I was kind of choosing a tribe at that point in life and from what information I had gathered upto that point the Jehovah's seemed the right choice for me. Now I’m not entirely sure which subtribe I belong to.

My seed for change: I hate to say it but I really believe that if you want to make a big change in your life you need to get to a point of sobriety for a little while. Do some cleansing, including healthy food choices and feel what your body organism has to say about it’s own personal centre so that your mind can centre and you can explore beyond that. 

Noelle

Merkaba and Eve Olution

merkaba

Merkaba:
When I found my Dharma, when I became fully aware that my path on the planet would be music, that was the biggest change I’ve made in my life. I discovered that music was my life, through a very powerful experience I’d had at a festival and everything changed after that. 

The change caused a lot of things that weren’t really assisting me in my path of music to leave my life. Like working a nine to five job and having a relationship that wasn’t really based on love, even though I wanted to believe it was. When I’d awoken to music being my path, these things just seemed stupid, they weren’t serving me anymore. It was like I was able to see through the illusion that I’d built up around myself and all of a sudden everything didn’t look real. I could easily imagine pretending everything was all still good and keep going, but I didn’t. 

Something I’ve used a lot is the power of words, because words are spells, which is where we get spelling from. If you speak words out loud with emotion and conviction you often get the universe reflecting back to you. So I would use the words “I intend to” to bring about change. For example “I intend to let go of these things that don’t help me” or “I intend to align with the people that are in my highest good”.

My seed for change would be: It’s about trusting yourself as you step into the unknown. Because you can have the most epic vision of your life but unless you step into the unknown of that vision and where it might take you, you you’re not going to know.

Eve Olution:
The biggest change for me was coming to California. I lived in the Midwest, in a reality where everyone worked from nine to five for their whole life, and for the most part, wasn’t happy. When I moved to California I went to my first festival, there I met the most amazing beautiful souls. 

Everyone looked at me straight in the eye and said “welcome home”, while they didn’t even know me. My whole soul opened and I had tears running through my face. I was so grateful that I was surrounded by people who were living their dream as artists. Being part of a Soul Family, that was the first time I ever experienced that and from that point forward life has never been the same for me.

To know that our dreams are real, to see it with my own eyes fueled my fire even more. It had already been lit since I was a kid but something ignited within me that made know and it’s never stopped since. I’ve been working on that core song from that moment forward. I’ve been supported by all these beautiful souls, something I’d never experienced before in my life, and I am grateful for it every single day. 

My seed for change: It’s okay to be afraid, fear is actually a part of the change, it’s the gateway. When you go through that fear, you are propelled with the excitement underneath that fear. That is your rocket fuel to keep going. Don’t be intimidated by the fear, face it in the face and keep going towards it, because something amazing is waiting on the other side.

Darac

darac

To talk about the spirit of the trance festivals is much more important for me then to talk about my personal change. Trance festivals have so much value for me, everybody cares about each other and you can find something good in all the people who come here. For me it feels like coming home because we all share the same thoughts and values.

When you’re going to a rock festival for example, you always encounter some aggression or fights. If you go to a trance festival like Transylvania Calling or Lost Theory, this is on such a secluded location, you really need to put a lot of energy into getting there. This makes that you won’t find many tourists or negative people. That’s the real tribal spirit. There is also a different connection with women in the trance culture, everyone is equal. One single lady can be surrounded by five men on the dancefloor and still feel protected.

On the festivals I’m responsible for the huge kites you see flying in the air. I make them all myself and they are at least 5 or 6 meters long. I’ve been doing this for a long time now and the trance culture and making these kites are the most important thing that I do in the summers.  On every festival I also give kite making workshops for the kids.

My seed for change: Be full of love and say nothing bad about other people.

Darac

Hanna

hanna

Going self employed was probably my biggest change yet. To try and set up a business that gets things flowing in the way that I want my life to be, a life with a lot of different experiences. Getting involved with the festivals and doing the chainsaw work for the stages gives the opportunity for a lot of freedom. Building the mainstage for a festival like Lost Theory is such a learning experience, you are constantly surrounded by interesting people.

Before this I was mostly working at bars, I was making some things for friends and doing stuff like illustration and animation. Getting into the chainsaw work is the first time that I really start selling and trying to use my art as a form of profession.

This change has given me much more confidence and a lot of new experiences. I always try to push myself to be able to keep going, although sometimes you can’t stop yourself from thinking “what the fuck am I doing?”

My seed for change would be: Try to be true to yourself and try to learn to see what you need. Take the best out of challenges, allow yourself to move on and don’t get hung up on negativity. And in the meantime try to have some fun.

Hanna

Ryan

ryan

When I decided to dedicate my whole life to music and realised that this was were I wanted to put my life energy into, a lot changed for me. So far it’s been good. Three years now since I had the realisation that that’s where everything was leading towards. It feels like I’m on the way up and it’s getting easier to sustain a lifestyle with which I’m able to do what I want to do.

The music and the lifestyle definitely combines to be very inspiring and I like to dedicate myself to that. It inspired me that it is possible to live outside the general constraints of society and still exist a little bit inside of society. I make my music under the name Ryanosaurus and Electrocado, I like to write lots of different sorts of music and take inspiration from everywhere.

My seed for change: It’s everyone’s own path to try and find the signs in their lives that lead them to the things that will make them happy. It takes some practice to read these signs, what’s coming from within yourself and what is coming from the outside.

Ryan

Maya

maya

My biggest change so far starts a bit sad actually. It was when I left the place where I grew up in Cornwall. I had lots of friends and memories there and I kinda left that all behind when we moved to Yorkshire.

In the beginning it was very hard to settle in, also because I missed Cornwall a lot. But after a while I kind of got used to it and it was fun again. It helped very much that I made lots of new friends. Also my mum helped me to start over again in the new place.

I do go and visit there a lot now, I guess about once every month. I learned so much from the whole experience. Even if I go away from a place it will still be there and I will always be able to go and visit. I still know that it exist and sometimes that feeling is enough.

My seed for change: It really helped me to keep a diary. Whenever I read my stories in there it helps me to remember my beautiful memories.

Maya